Eat, Pray, Love

So I have started reading Eat, Pray, Love. I really want to watch the movie but I always enjoy the books more. Almost every night when I go to bed, and the house is quiet, I read. It's my time, alone, it's just me and the book and whatever adventure we're on together. I guess it's just my escape.

So in my book the author and main character of the story is reflecting on life and how she does NOT want children. One of her friends told her "Having a baby is like getting a tattoo on your face. You really need to certain it's what you want before you commit." LOL :) Oh how true it is. Once you are a mother, you will always be mother, you will carry your kids in your heart just like a tattoo will always be there.

But it she mentions how she never had that desire to have kids. That was never me. I wanted children as far back as I can remember. As a child, I would stuff pillows under my shirt and pretend I was pregnant. I always knew that I wanted to be a mother. Then when we went through all our fertility treatments, I never thought it would happen.

I drove past the hospital that we used to go to for the fertility treatments last weekend. Oh what memories it brought back, I felt all the emotions all over again, the heartache of another Thanksgiving and Christmas without children. Just at that moment, Keegan gave me a nice big kick. Like to tell me, mom I love you and thank you for waiting for us.

The lesson that I learned from all of the years of trying, the heartache, the tears, the anger, was that no matter how much you force a situation, it will happen when it is meant to. I was meant to have Aidan, his soul was waiting for the right time. And again with Keegan.

Who would have imagined 3 years ago I was spending over $100 a shot/ per day in hopes to get pregnant and now I am pregnant with my second child Au natural! I am so blessed!

Anyway, I am anxious to see where my book goes and I hope that it continues to be a great story.

Well, I was just informed by my son that he has pooped. He says "uh-oh" and taps his diaper. It's a good sign, he doesn't like poop in his diaper and he knows if he tells me I will change him. :)

So I am off to be a mom...the best job I've ever had!! <3
I hope everyone has a great day!