As most of you know I have issues with my mom. Basically it comes down to she claims I said things that were never said. This was a year and a half ago. I have proved the best that I can that these things weren't said. sigh.
So today I get a call from my dad and basically he says that the only chance to get our family back together is to apologize to my mom (for the things I never said).
Since we haven't been speaking, I have had a chance to deal with some of the issues from growing up with her. I feel like I have really grown up and become the person I want to be without her holding me back. Before, when the phone rang I cringed and didn't want to answer it because if it was my mom, I never knew why she would be calling or what kind of mood she would be in, would I be in trouble for something...seriously it was bad.
The question lies in can I forgive her and forget. I don't know. Yes, I want my family back together. Yes, i want a mom. But at what cost?!?
And the biggest question...what prevents this from happening again? Since she made all this up in her head what stops her from doing it again?
Anyway...I guess that's all. I just have a lot to think about and some big decisions to make.
1 comment:
I don't envy the spot you're in- it's going to be a tough decision.
{{{Hugs}}}
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