36 week appointment

I'm huge, I'm cranky and I am SO uncomfortable! Heartburn so bad that it could burn through metal (i swear) and little feet in my ribs!
Luckily, he is starting to move down a little and that makes me a little more comfortable.

My blood pressure is creeping up again :-/ but I don't think it will get as bad at before. The doctor has me coming back on Monday to just make sure. The baby is measuring at 5lbs 12oz and our guess will be about 7.5-8 pounds. Yay! (no 9 pound baby thank you Sarah!) But he is very healthy and ultimately that is the most important! Only 26 more days!

Aidan has been neglected from my blog posts. He is doing really well. It has taken him a little longer ( i think) to get a hold of his words. But it seems overnight he has become very verbal. We will say "you did it!" and he will say "i did it!" Very cute! He says "I sit", "I draw" and lots of other things like "where'd it go" or "where did da go" He calls Chris "da" and me "momma" lol

He is starting to say his letters, we joke that he can say all his vowels! When he says "w" it comes out "double d" Cracks us up! We are always trying to get him to try and eat new things so we say "Aidan try this" he'll say "I try" and then offers his snacks or sippy cup to us and says "you try". He is still a little guy but we have found him to have excellent social skills. He never takes toys or is pushy, he would rather give a toy to another little one and has mastered sharing. So hopefully he will be a great big brother! And he loves watching older kids and just smiles and laughs watching them play.

Anyway, I think it's nap time for both Aidan and I! I'm beyond exhausted!

Quick Update

Hi everyone!

I had a wonderful 30th birthday and a wonderful Christmas! Normally I put so much effort in making the holidays enjoyable but this year, everything just fell into place.

Chris was off work from the 17th until the 27th. I was really sad to see him go back to work :(
But as we keep joking...soon he'll have a 2 week "vacation" when the baby comes. So not really a vacation but it will be nice having him around for two weeks.

I am almost 36 weeks now. Tomorrow I have a doctor appointment and an ultrasound. I'm very excited, I can't wait to see my baby again!

Yesterday, I dropped. Who knows if he will stay low as I know he's not fully engaged. But it's a nice break being able to breathe, getting up and down is easier and the heartburn has subsided some. I look A LOT smaller as well. Yesterday I also had a lot of "pinching" pain at my cervix. Like if you were having a really rough pap smear. So I *could* be starting to thin out some. But again, who knows, and hopefully I will get some answers tomorrow.

Well, I will update again tomorrow after my appointment! The best part is that Chris was able to get off work to join me tomorrow. :-)

34 week appointment

Today i had my 34 week appointment...it was very uneventful. My blood pressure keeps going down (Yay!) but event he nurse asked today if i was doing anything different and I said I've been trying to eat better - ie: more protein, more fiber...yada yada.
Really it's kinda crazy, but good. I took it the other day while I was at home. It was 122/66. I was shocked!

I go back in two weeks for my last ultrasound...I'm anxious to see HOW big this little guy is since I am HUGE, he is measuring on the larger side and I am now losing weight.

Then after that I start going every week and before you know it, it will be time to have Keegan.
Sigh. I have been very emotional, going between wanting Keegan now and not wanting my pregnancy to end. I am pretty sure he is our last and it makes me sad. Honestly, I cry over nothing right now...and I am an emotional wreck.
I think part of me wants to try to have this baby naturally...but I also know all the reasons why I don't. Sigh.

This Friday is our last MOPS meeting until after the holidays. It's our turn to bring food and they have a fun activity planned. I am very excited! Also, the ladies at my table are giving me a "Mother's Blessing" - kinda like a baby shower but no gifts and just a celebration of the new baby about to come into the world.

Next week...I turn 30. I am not really sad about it or anything but I have to wonder where my 20's went to?! But I have to say that Chris and I spent most of our 20's having fun and enjoying life. We really had so much fun together and now is our time to raise our babies and enjoy them...they don't stay small for long. :)
One thing that I have started doing is straightening my hair. It looks really nice ( a little more grown up) and it's just something new for me. As Chris called it - I'm having a mid-life hair crisis. LOL I just needed something new!

Quick Update

Things are going well here...

I have 6 weeks 3 days to go until we meet Keegan! I am getting very excited! Or it could be that I have heartburn that could eat through metal, I'm exhausted all the time and I'm getting very uncomfortable.

Update on my mom situation...We all went over there last weekend after visiting Santa and his reindeer near my parents home. (Side note- the reindeer were awesome! Aidan got to feed them and pet them! They were very sweet!) But my mom stayed in her room the whole time and didn't want to see us. How very childish. Oh well, at this point I can't worry about it. I have Christmas, friends, my family and many other things to worry about.

Tonight we are going my husband's company party...it's actually for their 25th Anniversary but it's conveniently close to Christmas. :) Regardless it will be AWESOME! They always go above and beyond and last time they had Kid Rock come, they've had Black eyed peas and even the Monkey's play...this year, who knows...rumor is Journey will play! So besides being HUGE I am really looking forward to a fun evening!

I am getting ready to jump in the shower and start trying to look somewhat put together! :) Have a great weekend everyone!

Between a rock and a hard place...

As most of you know I have issues with my mom. Basically it comes down to she claims I said things that were never said. This was a year and a half ago. I have proved the best that I can that these things weren't said. sigh.

So today I get a call from my dad and basically he says that the only chance to get our family back together is to apologize to my mom (for the things I never said).

Since we haven't been speaking, I have had a chance to deal with some of the issues from growing up with her. I feel like I have really grown up and become the person I want to be without her holding me back. Before, when the phone rang I cringed and didn't want to answer it because if it was my mom, I never knew why she would be calling or what kind of mood she would be in, would I be in trouble for something...seriously it was bad.

The question lies in can I forgive her and forget. I don't know. Yes, I want my family back together. Yes, i want a mom. But at what cost?!?
And the biggest question...what prevents this from happening again? Since she made all this up in her head what stops her from doing it again?

Anyway...I guess that's all. I just have a lot to think about and some big decisions to make.

C-section date has been set

I heard from my doctor last week and we have set my date to have my c-section - January 25, 2011

I am pretty excited but there is always a chance Mr. Keegan could make an appearance before then as it's only 5 days before my actual due date. Wouldn't that be crazy?! Planning a c-section and end up delivering naturally. I think if I was in labor and progressing (the problem last time) I would want to try and give it a shot.

So Keegan's birthday is set for 2 days before Aidan's! Poor boys...I hope they don't mind too much!?

30 Week Doctor Appointment Update

I had a great appointment today! Chris took the day off to come with me as we had questions about the scheduled c-section and birth control following.

We are pretty sure we have a date, January 21, 2011. That will be finalized in about 4 weeks.
The baby is measuring large! Which is great because with Aidan they were worried because he was so small. My blood pressure has been great! One of my MOPS friends suggested increasing my protein (as I should anyway) but to get around 70 grams a day. (I don't always reach my goal but I get pretty close) My blood pressure has gotten better and today was fantastic! Yay!
The doctor doesn't think I'll end up on bedrest or need medication - Thank goodness!

Also, we decided not to get my tubes tied, just yet. I know that we are very happy with 2 kids but we are still only 30 and I don't think this is a decision that should be made while I'm pregnant. So i am going to have the Mirena IUD put in. I have a couple friends that have it and like it. So it's worth a shot, worst case, I don't like it and have it removed. But it lasts for 5 years and at that point we will know if we want more kids or not.

Then Chris and I had lunch together! :)

Chris got a gym membership at Planet Fitness and has been SO good about going to work out! I am so proud of him!

So things are great around here!

Happy Veterans Day...and our 12 year anniversary!

I know it's silly but after all these years we still celebrate the anniversary when we started dating.
12 years ago Chris asked me to be his girlfriend and we haven't been apart since! So many people didn't think we would last, we were young and had a lot against us. But after all these years I still get excited when he calls and butterflies when he kisses me. :)
Next May will be our 10 year Wedding Anniversary!

Tonight we are having a baby sitter come over so we can go have dinner and do some shopping.

Christmas!

I have been in the Christmas spirit! Planning gifts, when we are going to put up the tree, lights and other decorations!

Today I made our Christmas cards. They turned out really neat! I found them on Tinyprints.com, it is actually a postcard that I was able to to write out a message, that they print on them, to make the holidays easier for me! :)

What do you think?!

A few Halloween Pictures

Updates

Good Morning!

Halloween went well considering Aidan has hit the temper tantrum stage. He liked walking around the neighborhood but would throw himself down when he wasn't allowed to run into the street. But the big piles of leaves made him really happy!
He also was a stinker about letting us take his picture. So the pictures of him aren't great, but he was super cute dressed as a monkey! I found Gracie a banana costume but I ended up having to take it apart and stitch it back together to fit her little body. (Jen- I sewed by hand! lol)

Once Aidan was done with Trick-or-Treating (we only went to a few of our close neighbors houses and they all had a special treat for him) we came home and Aidan was being awful, so I put him to bed a little before 7pm. So Chris, Gracie and I sat outside and gave away candy. Gracie was a hit, she is the best dog ever! I never have to worry about her with kids and she just wanted everyone to pet her.
We ended up running out of candy (we had over 150 kids) so Chris and I curled up and watched a scary movie and went to bed. It was a great night!

Yesterday, I had a nice lazy day. I did do laundry and vacuum the house but I had a helper! :0)

Today, we have to go grocery shopping. So now I am trying to do meal planning.

I have the Christmas bug SO bad! I am ready to put up the Christmas tree and listen to Christmas music! Yesterday Chris and I sat down to work on our Christmas budget. Chris had gotten a VERY nice bonus this year (5 figures) so we were able to sock a bunch away and get all ready for the new baby. And I don't feel the normal holiday stress!

Tomorrow Gina is coming over for lunch and some chit chat. (we always watch 16 and Pregnant together)
Thursday, I have my Glucose test - yuck! I am just praying I don't throw up. Since everything makes me throw up. :-/ Plus my normal doctor visit.
Friday I have my MOPS meeting! Yay! :)

So next week is our (Chris and I) anniversary from when we started dating - November 11, 1998. So 12 years ago - after 3 months of "courting" me- He asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. And the rest is history! <3

What a weekend!

Hi everyone!

It's been forever since I updated my blog. :)

MOPS on Friday went really well! I love the group and I look forward to making new friends! They have already invited me to a playgroup this Thursday. :)

Saturday night we did a trial run on the one girl we interviewed to babysit, because I really liked her. Chris and I went to dinner (just around the corner) and did some Christmas shopping. We were only gone 2 hours. She - Alicia - did really well and kept in touch with me via text and even sent a picture of Aidan. She brought Aidan some bubbles, a craft to do and a baby pumpkin to color on. When we came in Aidan was sitting on her lap watching cartoons. It was nice, I think he felt very at ease with her and had a good time. We have a Halloween party this Friday night, Aidan will already be in bed by the time we leave so Alicia will just be here making sure he is okay. She is great though, CPR certified, she's a CNA going to school to be a nurse

Ugh...so Chris has brought this nasty bug home from work. I'm not joking when I say his whole team has been out sick the last couple weeks.
Luckily, Aidan and I have really good immune systems and we had been fighting it off. Aidan and I got our flu shots Saturday morning, they wouldn't give one to Chris because he was sick. We were both fine, in fact I felt nothing from the flu shot.
Sunday, middle of the night, Aidan woke up with a fever. So we started him Tylenol & Ibuprofen, alternating them works the best!
He was all congested and coughing - just like Chris! We started the saline nasal drops/spray on him and they worked like a charm.
It was a rough day, but with a lot of cuddling and soothing and temp baths, he broke his fever Sunday night and has been fine since. Even his congestion is a lot better. This morning he is running around like a crazy boy!

Chris is STILL sick. I think he will have to go to the doctor. Unfortunately, I have picked up the bug. Sore throat, congestion...I am taking the over the counter stuff I am allowed to take and I using the saline spray (minus the snot bulb! LOL)
Oh and this weekend the baby, Keegan, and I were playing the poke back game! :-D I poke at him and he pokes back! I love it! How can I already be so in love with him?!

So I guess that's my update! I better go check on Aidan. I heard him jumping on our bed and watching cartoons. Good thing (being sarcastic) he's too smart for his own good and can turn on the TV via the remote (since it's wall mounted) and change the channel to Nick jr. He's a smart kid!

Quick update

Well, today I start interviewing potential babysitters for Aidan. (before you freak out, don't worry, I do a back ground check and require references)

It's hard for me to do this, but it's time. We have been depending on friends (I always paid them) but I need a babysitter that can be available if Chris and I need to go to an event and someone who can cover doctor appointments and it sure would be nice to have date night!

I have one girl coming today, and she seems really nice. I look forward to talking with her more.
Next week I have two more interviews and hopefully out of this bunch I will find the one!

Tomorrow, is my first MOPS meeting! I am so excited! I can't wait to see what it's like! :)

Eat, Pray, Love

So I have started reading Eat, Pray, Love. I really want to watch the movie but I always enjoy the books more. Almost every night when I go to bed, and the house is quiet, I read. It's my time, alone, it's just me and the book and whatever adventure we're on together. I guess it's just my escape.

So in my book the author and main character of the story is reflecting on life and how she does NOT want children. One of her friends told her "Having a baby is like getting a tattoo on your face. You really need to certain it's what you want before you commit." LOL :) Oh how true it is. Once you are a mother, you will always be mother, you will carry your kids in your heart just like a tattoo will always be there.

But it she mentions how she never had that desire to have kids. That was never me. I wanted children as far back as I can remember. As a child, I would stuff pillows under my shirt and pretend I was pregnant. I always knew that I wanted to be a mother. Then when we went through all our fertility treatments, I never thought it would happen.

I drove past the hospital that we used to go to for the fertility treatments last weekend. Oh what memories it brought back, I felt all the emotions all over again, the heartache of another Thanksgiving and Christmas without children. Just at that moment, Keegan gave me a nice big kick. Like to tell me, mom I love you and thank you for waiting for us.

The lesson that I learned from all of the years of trying, the heartache, the tears, the anger, was that no matter how much you force a situation, it will happen when it is meant to. I was meant to have Aidan, his soul was waiting for the right time. And again with Keegan.

Who would have imagined 3 years ago I was spending over $100 a shot/ per day in hopes to get pregnant and now I am pregnant with my second child Au natural! I am so blessed!

Anyway, I am anxious to see where my book goes and I hope that it continues to be a great story.

Well, I was just informed by my son that he has pooped. He says "uh-oh" and taps his diaper. It's a good sign, he doesn't like poop in his diaper and he knows if he tells me I will change him. :)

So I am off to be a mom...the best job I've ever had!! <3
I hope everyone has a great day!

Some thoughts

Good Morning!

When I'm pregnant I really feel the crazy ups and downs of life a lot more personally. We have had some great family news (however, I don't want to give details on anything until it's offical). On one hand it's sad but in the end it is the best thing for everyone.

I've also had some friend issues :-/ ...but most of my friends are not married and don't have kids. Here I am, I've been married for almost 10 years and we are having our second child, but most of my friends can't relate to ANYTHING I'm going through. I have been thinking about going to the MOPS group at our local church to meet some moms. Especailly, being a stay-at-home I really new a new group of friends.

I've also discovered that some moms appear to be amazing moms, (for example; facebook posts) but when you look into their life you see that it's all just a front and they are full of it. I guess they are trying to apprear to be a GREAT mom.

So for Halloween, Aidan is going to be a Monkey and we got the dog a banana costume so we can all go trick-or-treating together. :o) I am really looking forward to it! Since last year he was just too little to understand.

Well, I better get Aidan dressed so we can go run our errands. Today we need to go to PetSmart, Walmart, and the grocery store.

Aidan Pictures!

Aidan hugging Gracie in his room. These were all taken before his hair cut.

Washer and Dryer

The new utility sink even has a pull out sprayer! The washer and dryer are both high efficiency. I just love them!

We still need to hang pictures and whatnot on the walls. Chris is also going to hide the power cord by dropping it down the wall. So I guess it's not completely done!

The boys room!

This one ^ is dark but you can see the real wall color.

I think I am STILL nesting!

Oh what a morning!
I decided it was time to clean out our master bedroom closet. I knew it was going to be a big job but I didn't think it was going to take me 3 hours though. But it's done! I have one big bag of clothes for donation, one bag of garbage (you know the clothes that have holes in them but the hubby won't let you toss :0) and miscellaneous stuff that needs to put away in other places.
I was going to the store today but I think Aidan and I are going to go tomorrow. I am dragging! I don't know if it's because I'm almost in my third trimester or what but I feel exhausted!

So I made mac & cheese with peas for lunch for us, it was very yummy. I just laid Aidan down for a nap and I am about to nap as well.

Thinking lasagna for dinner tonight!

Also, I will post pictures soon of our bedroom, the nursery and the new washer and dryer!

Our busy weekend!

Well, I am re-starting my blog in hopes that I can keep up with it. :) So my friends and family can keeps tabs on our life and our children!

Happy Monday all!

I am now 25 weeks pregnant with our second child, another boy. We have decided to name him Keegan Patrick. I am so excited to meet him. He is a very quiet child in the womb however this pregnancy has been horrible. I still have morning sickness most days. And it's just that, every morning, I get sick and then I am fine. The only good thing with this pregnancy, is that I am not gaining the weight that I did with Aidan. I am only up 13 pounds so far. Yay!

The last few weekends we've had have been so crazy that we haven't had time to sit down or relax. The previous weekend we re-painted our room and moved out our huge bed frame and put in new blinds, curtains and a flat screen TV. Our room is small but it doesn't feel like it.
We also updated the boys room and put up curtains and whatnot. It looks so nice!

This past weekend, I had an appointment to get my eyes checked (they're good, got new contacts), Aidan got his first hair cut - so cute, naturally Chris had to work some, and we had family pictures done. However, Aidan had the biggest temper tantrum ever! He was so mad that we wouldn't let him investigate the pond with all the ducks in it by himself. Ugh. But our friend Brandy, who does the most awesome photos, graciously put up with us. But I think we got some good pictures, regardless! I can't wait to see them! We also watched "How to Train Your Dragon" which was very cute and I even teared up in the end! Great movie!

Sadly, I had to cancel plans with some of my dear friends for a jewelry party, because on top of everything, I have been fighting a cold. It seems to get better when I get enough sleep and flares up when I am exhausted.

But I just have to remember that I am pregnant and I do need to slow down and take it easy sometimes.

Well, I've got to go fold some laundry and get the house picked up. We're going grocery shopping later today.